The sand I walked on... is back in my shoes!!




“Happy Birthday again Juhi.. It was real fun today.. see you in college tomo.. chal good night. Byeeeee….” I said. It was Juhi’s birthday and we were some 15 girls in that dinner party. Our cheek bones had started paining as we had laughed and laughed and laughed for hours together.
Kati asked me, “ Nivi, you going to hostel now? It’s already 10.30”
“No, I ll be going to paggus place” I replied.
“You took permission”?
“ No.. I forgot actually.. but chalega. I don’t think warden is there.”
We had not finished our talks. Sweetoo was waiting for her father to come. Me, Paggu and Kati were waiting with her. Sweetoo’s father was like a friend for all of us. So when he came, it was not difficult for us to convince him to let Sweetoo stay with me and paggu that night. Kati could not stay with us as she had to go to yoga classes early in the morning, then pick up her bhabhi and drop her to didi’s place and then pick up something from her another cousins place and….Well I don’t remember the rest of her works.. but last one was to come to college before the labs..(;-)).
Me, Sweetoo and Paggu came to Paggus home. Aunty and Uncle were still awake.They knew that it would be late. Aunty asked us “ How was the party?”
Sweetoo said “aunty, the party was so much fun..we had been to celebrates.. we laughed the whole time..everyone there must have felt kahan se aaye hai ye log.. he he he”.
Paggu was excited to explain what manik did..she said “aayee, ami truth or dare khelat hota.. manik la ami ek dare delo.. toh dare ashi hota.. (marathi- we were playing Truth or dare and we gave manik a dare)” she was telling in Marathi.
I took it from there ”Aunty the dare was to stand up on the chair and say ‘gooooooooddddddd eeeevvveeninnnnniinggggggg celebrates’ in that munnabhai style.. You wont believe it aunty.. She did it.!! She literally stood up on her chair and said it.!! We laughed so much.. Everyone there were looking at us.. my god.. it was ttttooootal fun..” We told the whole story to aunty and went to sleep.I was very close to paggu and her family. They loved me equally. They were my parents there.
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It was almost 12 and I was not getting sleep. I saw paggu.
I called..” Paggu..”
“umm..??”
“U awake?”
“umm…”
“I m not getting sleep..”
“ umm..”
“Paggu, get up no…”
“umm??”
“Paggu..”
“Ya.. I m listening.. tell me..”
“Then open ur eeyyyes..”
She smiled.. she saw me and smiled again..
“what happened??”
“ I was thinking…”
“ What??!! U?? Really?? That’s something funny.. wait I ll msg kati.. he he he..” she got up and sat on my bed.
“hey .. I m serious yaar.. listen..no.. kaise dost ho tum log??”
“he he he..good it is.. tell me” paggu said.
“I was wondering where will we be next year by now..”
“Where else?? Working in our companies..” she said casually..
We saw Sweetoo.. she was nicely sleeping. We( Me and Paggu) could not see that.. we took out the pillow from her bed.. uhoon.. no.. she didn’t get up.. then we started hitting her with pillow.. she woke up saw us and tried to say something but we started laughing… again!!.
I suddenly felt senti,I said..“what if we never meet??”
“Ah!! Come on nivi.. I know we cannot be like that” paggu replied.
“We don’t know about you.. but weee will keep meeting..” Sweetoo was making fun of it.
“Plz yaar.. I m serious...” I said.
“umm.. we ll meet at katis marriage nooo..” paggu said.
Sweetoo nodded and gave me that.. "why are you so senti” kind of look.
“ya.. hey how abt this?? Look… Sweetoo is in ‘that’ company, me in ‘this’ and you in yours.. and kati ll get married.. you know na.. our companies have lots competition between themselves.. you know what we can do??”
“ what??” Sweetoo asked looking at me as if she knew I would start something absolute nonsense.
I replied “ say after some x years me, you and she will reach the highest positions in our companies.. and in a IT fair we will cut off all the rivalries..”
“ he he he.. yeah.. and we ll make it this way..ANYBODY CAN WORK FOR ANY COMPANY..” Paggu added her ideas.
“yes.. we ll merge our companies..” I said.
“Nivi.. I like it.. then??” Sweetoo said and smiled listening to us.
“ Then after merging what.. we ll be the richest of all..” I was excited now.
“aha!! There comes money.. nivi I knew it he he he..” paggu knew Where I would take it.
“ listen no….. then for the celebration of the end of the rivalries.. we ll give all the employees holiday..”
Sweetoo saw me and said.. "arey.. if you give holidays like that.. U ll become the poorest of all companies in 10 days..”
We were very much involved in making up this dream kind of thing..as though we were the next big daily soap story writers.
“No.. nothing will happen… we ll be the richest only.. by then.. I guess Katis son will be getting married.. he he he” Paggu laughed.
“ ya.. well lets go to her sons marriage in my private jet..” I said.
“Private jet?? Arey wah!!.. well.. yourr jet, my pilot and Paggu will sponser fuel.. he he he friendship yaar..” Sweetoo added.
yeh dosati.. hum nahi… chodenge.. ha ha ha…” We sang... softly offcourse!!
“ what gift shall we give her son??” paggu asked us as if we were about to attend the marriage tomorrow.
She, Sweetoo and kati are my best company to do all such stupid things…when we are together we are stupid, crazy, maadddd to what ever extent.. no boundaries at all..I can speak any crap,to sum it up I say... I can cry infront of them( That says everything.. right??)
I replied.. “what to gift?? Umm.. how abt a private Island??”
“yes… that will be perfect!! Good it is…” Paggu agreed.
Before we decided upon the gift.. we had a small discussion of abt 15 minutes about the gift we can give to katis son. It ranged from private jet to woodland shoes( That sounds crazy isn’t it??)
“arey we are rich yaar..”
“ We ll gift kati some diamond set..” Paggu suggested.
“ok.. but D’dmas wale..” I was particular about that.
“Which ever ya... then what abt juhi and manik??” Sweetoo asked.
“ umm.. lets make manik as President of India and Juhi as Primeminister” I said.
Paggu laughed and said.. “arey.. No.. lets make Juhi President Of India and manik PM.. you know na.. Juhi doesn’t like to work so much.. he he he..”
We laughed together again…
I said “ lets go on holiday with manik, and juhi too…”
“ lets go to katis home.. say.. she ll be settled in US” Sweetoo said though she didn’t like US much.
“ok.. we are rich and famous na.. we have contacts with PM and president.. we are wadde log yaar.. toh apni bhi koi waddi holiday honi chahiye na??he he he..” I had lost all my senses. They had lost it too.
“My god.. its so nice like this… where do you get such Ideas from Nivi??” Paggu was not able to stop laughing.
I said.. “ mentos.. dimaag ki batti jalade jani.. he he he..”
Dimaag ki batti jalane keliye pehle dimaag honi chaagiye madam..Btw we forgot about civil madam” Sweetoo wanted to have one of our friend who was doing her civil in this crazy dream.
“oh!! we had forgotten her” paggu remembered her..
I acted as if I m thinking seriously and then I said “ umm.. she likes to go to Japan right?? Then.. lets keep her in Japan..she ll be a big.. bbbiiiiiiiggggggg civil engineer in Japan. While going to Katis sons marriage.. we will pick her from Japan and then go..”
Sweetoo wanted to make it easier.. she said "arey, that will be double work.. go to Japan, pick her, and then go to katis sons marriage.. instead we can ask her to come here.. and then we can go together.”
Paggu said “All right.. civil madam is rich and a celebrity too.. so she ll also join us for US holiday”
Me and Sweetoo laughed and said “off course paggu…”
We laughed together again.. It was almost 3 AM. We had to sleep.

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Next day in the college When we said this crazy, crapest(I doubt if this word exists) dream to kati, juhi, and manik.. we were caught laughing in the class.. sir asked us to tell him the reason…. We didn’t.. but laughed again..

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Hey,
As usual I m getting senti. Things won’t be same from tomo. If not everything most of the things in life are gonna change. None of us can say, “I will never change” as Change is one obvious thing and something tells me.. change for today is a better tomorrow. I believe it. They say miracles happen.I believe it without even asking ‘when??’. I believe it. For now I Just hope to never change so much that I forget the path I walked on.. holding your hands, laughing, chatting, gossiping. There will be n no. of ppl walking on the same path.. but none of them will be us. Right??
Now sweetoo stop laughing, kati.. don’t stop your tears.. paggu.. react something.. don’t gimme that “now you made me senti too” kind of look, and civil madam don’t laugh, for manik..”yyoo man” and juhi even you stop laughing.
Everyone.. take care. A big hug from me.
Lots of love.
Nivi.

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