What was I thinking?


Dear DreamBox,
Well.. Guess wat??? Today it’s a year I joined this company.. last year on 28th of November I had my 1st day at office.. my first day into corporate world.. my 1st step towards being independent, my new beginning.. a new day… and you know where I was at this time last year rite??? Yes!! I was in
Bhubaneswar.. one of my favourite places.. My first day.. so far from parents, far from people who know the language I know, far from all the food I have been eating my life,.. far from my college friends.. Little afraid, little scared.. so much excited.. so many hopes, dreams , expectations..

Look at me now.. I feel so different. I feel so new.. I feel as if I completed reading the suspense chapter of some suspense novel.. I feel strange.. as if all curosity in my life is over.. I don’t even know if it’s a good sign or not..

No. . I have not lost all the curosity towards my future. I still have.. but its like I some how know where the story is going to take turns,ups and downs.. Its just that I don’t know how its going to happen.. I know the destination.. I know the path.. I just don’t know how my journey would be… you getting me right??

In office today we all congratulated each other.. some even made fun by telling that lets mourn for 2 mins in the memories of our lost souls.. he he he..we planned to have a small party kind of stuff sometime tomorrow(small one b’coz its month end.. and our bank balance is low.. L). I too laughed with them, had fun.. but now that I am writing this.. I feeling nostalgic.. nostalgic of the old days..

I remember my days in bhubhaneswar, the happy times, the tough times.. the lonely times.. everything seems to be so fresh for a second.. but when I concentrate on them.. I feel them fading away.. as if suddenly its fog every where and I m not able to see things as clearly as I saw them just a second before.. I have to ask my friends for the names of the places we visited.. the names of the people we lived with.. the names of the dishes, the restaurants, the streets.. is it a good sign?? I don’t know..
I see my self as if I am watching a movie of my own life.. Its fine to cry seeing myself cry rite?? Does that mean I still have the pain in me?? Doesn’t matter.. who cares.. rite??
So… wish me luck for my future.. I m trying to sound excited… Its my one year completion yaar… he he he(exciting enough????).. chalo then.. bye.. take care.. ya.. miss you.. byeee…..

12 comments:

ಆನಂದ said...

hmmm... i know how it feels to have completed a year (The first one, very nostalgic of course) in office. Now come to think of it, years are passing by...(in the same office) and that fun is no longer there.... :(
I just wish you to have that fun, that curiosity thorogouht your career.
Good Luck :)

ದಿನಕರ ಮೊಗೇರ.. said...

very nice... congrats..... best of luck for the gr8 future..... have fun and enjoy the party .... remember old days ,,,,,,,,,,,, have curiosity towards life always........ its good......

Pragati said...

Congratulations..
Suspense chapter of some suspense novel??:P

Niveditha said...

@Anand
thanks..

@Dinakar
Thank you..

@Paggu
Hmm.. aur kaise bolu mein apni maan ki baat?? I think I am reading lots of novel these days n its the effect of the same..

Mahesh said...

Congrats for getting confirmed. Hope you enjoy the same way you did in the first year and don't become a terminally confused soul. good luck

Niveditha said...

@ Mahesh
Thanks Mahesh.. Thanks for reading

harsha bhat said...

Good one!!!
And ya..let's march towards success in this hard hard IT industry!!! :-)
And ya..congratulations for having completed one year and still being alive :-O

Niveditha said...

@Harsha
Well truely said.. we survived a year.. we sud pray to god to give us enuf strength to survive here for a life time.. he he he.. Thanks anyways

Snehal said...

Congratulations!! :)

Lets celebrate someday..

Niveditha said...

@snehal..
Hey... its so nice to c u back.. lets celebrate.. lets all get together first.. loads of love..

ಕನಸು said...

hi
good one
keep it up

Ganesh Bhat(ಗಣೇಶ ಭಟ್ಟ ) said...

ಹ್ಮ್ಮ್ ನಂಗೆ ಇನ್ನುವರೆಗೆ ನಿಮ್ಮ ಬ್ಲಾಗ್ ಕಲ್ಪನೆಗಳ ಮೂಟೇನ ಅಥವಾ ನಿಜ ಜೀವನದ ಘಟನೆಗಳ ಹೇಳುದೆ ಗೊತ್ತೈದಿಲ್ಲೇ.....!!!!!!!!!!